Tidbits

My legs are feeling much better although I am just really wiped out. I guess that is what not letting yourself recover and having two exams in a week do to you. I am working a lot more recently also so I have less time to do said studying!

Sarah over at skinnyrunner is hosting a mondo giveaway (yes I just used mondo). In order to participate, vote for her brother to win Crate and Barrell's wedding giveaway. I am not gonna lie, I was planning on entering this when I got engaged.......riiight. (see below for why this is now not happening!) So good luck to Matt & Marlie - hope my vote helps ya out!

Lastly, I am in a mental pickle about when the "right" time to let myself date again is. Is there a right time?

Happy monday!

The Marathon to end all Marathons - no seriously, I am never doing one again

This is a super picture heavy post b/c words just can't do this Sunday justice. I look really happy in some of these (hint: I am FAKING!). The LA marathon was the worst weather imaginable! I saw on the website today they asked which was your favorite mile...duh! mile 1 b/c it was the only non-rainy one! Everything afterwards was torrential downpour, 40 mph winds, flooded streets. I could not feel my hands, my legs, my stomach, minus the shooting pain in my left calf.

I like the guy behind me in this picture. He is really cheesing for the camera!

I may appear happy in the photos below but it is a lie. I am miserable and trying to psych myself into having fun. It is freezing and raining and I have a long way to go. Leigh and I hated life.

Hey, at least I don't look like I am in as much pain as the guy behind me!

Absolute joy/delirium. This is about 1 minute before hypothermia set in. I have NEVER been colder in my life! I grew up in the freezing northeast, skied, played hockey, and this was the worst. Standing outside, on the ocean, in wet clothes and shoes with a wet hat, and a tin foil blanket? People started giving me clothes I was such a sad sight!

All in all, I did it. I did it with 3 great friends and we all finished. It took us a LOT longer than we thought and I think I could have gone much faster, like 30 min faster, with no problem, had the weather been nice. I will tell you this, I have never felt a better hot shower in my life!

Getting My Life Back Together

It has been 2 weeks and I am still alive. Not only am I still alive, but I have moved into my own apartment, gotten an A on my cardiology exam, spent 4 shifts at the hospital, and gone on a 20 mile training run for my marathon. I am PROUD of myself.

There have been days where I have cried on my bed, on the couch, on the floor for hours on end, cursing his name, throwing myself a pity party, feeling all emotions from sad to angry to relieved to hopeless. But no matter what, I am alive and well. I have my health, (definitely NOT my wealth), my family, my friends, and I would like to think, a sense of humor.

I know that there will be rough waters ahead and many milestones to accomplish on my own without hurriedly calling him to tell him about them. I know there will be lonely Friday nights on the couch with no one but my boys Ben and Jerry. I know that I will have to date, will not like some of my dates, and might like some of my dates but they might not like me back. Above all, I know that I am young, I am smart, I am funny, I am pretty, I am athletic, and I deserve the best and will get the best, wherever and whenever that might be.